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Lol, and you can tell...I cant spell the work [ s .ai.k] lol, oh god, i hope theres a p in there somewhere :P, haha..so ottawa is coming up in may, and i HAVE offically blown a huge chuck o' my moolah into 1 tank top, 1 collar shirt, 1 dress, 1 HAWT belt, 1 sweeeeet jacket, 1 legging thing, 1 tube top, and yurp. thats it...i think :S, never too sure with the purchases I make, har. har. right now Im listening to sugarcult, fall out boy, and taking back sunday. Ive got my glasses on, for like the first time in a think was a decade, and I feel quite old. Im exctatic that a certain person doesnt hold a grudge for hating her a while ago, once I saw her today, and she smiled, it was all good, I think I have officially stopped raging over the jealousy thing between her and former lover of mine. :P, Finally we might have a chance at possibly being friend in R.green. I have just recently discovered in the corners of my mom;s closet she had hidden these brilliantly chique nine west shoes, black, pointed heel, quite simply, but yet tres elegant. Haha, listen to my obsesse as if Im some form of a fashionista, rotf. Nu uh. Oh and I wanted to purchase this [baggy] sweater, which btw is a guys sweater but I really did like it, my [ you- must-dress- girly] mother is worried about me changing into a anti-tight girl, who shops in the guys department, and shows no interest in womens fashion. God, it was one grey sip up, and it was NICE. not to mention on sale, but that doesnt matter, im still extremly happy with today's buys.

whoah, im watching this video clip " just like you"- three days grace or something, its scary, a hundred or so people standing straight up in a prison-ish room, all with these masks on- all of which are the same... that scares me.:/, im akward. Now the video has transformed into the same people moshing together without their masks. Oh lordy, aint I a disgrace to explainin this video? :P

Im happy my internet has returned to dwell within my screen. lol.

now this goth-wannabe band is blasting the words " die romantic, romantic, this is the nightmare...blah blah blah"

anyways, im out.

<3 cyas

oh wait.

my wishlist

shoes- converse chuck taylors
perfurm- euphoria
makeup- something from MAC, especially eyeliner
nails- french manicure
earrings- silver studs
clothes- some kind of shorts!
- think of more later

Why hello my folk. I have skillfully survived my first diet-ary food shopping, shopping trip. This time- as a first it had discluded my splurges on high-fat delicacys known to the modern man as : doughnuts, cupcakes, 200-cal bagels, frosting, cookies, and all assortments of those. I am finally going to stop hatng my 110 pound self, and dieting to become this 98 pound me I always wanted to be. That means losing 4 pounds a month,..well din din has arrived. ~back. Oh, soon I shall become on of those blog-obssessed monkeys, forever glued to their personal, and portable devices, carrying them virtually anywhere, and thirsting them of much needed sleep. Oh yes, my future looks bleak. bwahaha, was that a rhyme? Anyways, todays food consisted of: 1 bowls of (kellogs) rice crispies, 1 mcdonalds salad- hold the dressing. (  btw the only reason I ate at the clown's kitchen is because my mom was in hunger for  a burger, and so I'm like " this day is NOT going to waste" thus, the salad comes into play) ok, 2 turtles candies (: , salad and chicken, and for desert watermelon. Anyways, I feel full to the brim. And im glad too because today consisted of 2 walks, and all of which i had my ankle weights on. Ok, this isnt only about food is it? no, thats not the main purpose of this diary. The main purpose is to reflect of my desicions which i will or already have made thoughout the course of today. And one of those decisions is my social life. and probably by the sounds of me, your thinking " what social life" rite? har. har, har, NO, I DO have a social life, you know? Theres this guy, but hes also the guy which my friend has desperatly liked, and consumed her life with for the past 2 weeks. He and I are very close. I tell him alot about me, and vise versa. So m friend, is [of course] jealous of our status on the friends chain of close-ness. But really, I wont give up my hard earned friend ship for some temporary jealousy of hers? Should I? Of course not, In my time of need a friend is what I need most, I cant just pass up someone like this. Oh yea, and have i mentioned, this very same friend is a canadian national judo champ? bwahaha, I know a celeb. A patheticlly hunky muscullar 14 year old celeb. :D